There was a time in my life not too long ago when I could honestly say that I wasn't happy. I wasn't afraid to say it because at the time, it was true. I wasn't happy with my life, and I wasn't happy with myself. I was at the lowest point that I've ever been in my life, and at some points I never thought that it would never get better.
But it has. Slowly and surely, I've gained the confidence and contentedness that I was lacking for so long. I'm not afraid to try new things, to put myself out there, to stand up for myself, and to get outside my comfort zone. I've gained better friends than I could have ever hoped for. I know that I'm surrounded with people who love me, care about me, and want the best for me.
While I was in California last week, I was sitting on a rock looking out at the ocean contemplating life and what-not and I realized something. At that moment, I was completely content with my life and how things were playing out. I've always been terrified of the future and what it holds, but the reassurance I felt right then was overwhelming and this thought came to me:
"Everything is going to be okay. No matter what. You have amazing friends and family and have been blessed with wonderful opportunities. You deserve to be happy."
And I am.
After everything I've been through, I can honestly say that I'm happy with my life. I'm not saying that it's perfect, because it's not. I still have struggles, I still worry that people will forget about me, I still get upset, I still get tempted and make mistakes, and I definitely still have a long way to go to be where I'd like to be. But I promise you, it gets better. It's not going to be easy. It might take a long time. But through faith and trust, you can reach joy. It's the most cliche phrase every, but everything really does happen for a reason. Face life with a smile, no matter what, and eventually your happiness will become real. One day this will all be a memory and you'll be just fine.
Sorry not sorry for the cheesefest. Okay bye.
